为什么“离开”的决定，需要两个人做决定....?

你为什么要逼人生活在一个不快乐的情况。. ..

而你不能给人~幸福。

每天生活在忧虑.....如此可怕的!

我只想简单的生活..

你说过的承诺在哪里？

请告诉我.. 我应该等待多久..?

真的很累...很累 :(

RAndom

I still remember when i wake up, the first thing that i see is him who sleep beside me.. But, this few weeks, when i wake up... the first thing that i see is a window with a beautiful sky... you used to spoil me and i luv the way it was.. u treat me like a child tat need your care and luv.But recently, all this had been gone.. I noe both of us so stress.. but, we should try to think in positive way.

Recent Me...

Time goes by... and I didn't realize tat it was July... Recently, keep bc wit my new open hair studio at Bkt Jalil and at the same time. I'm working at my used car.I also realize that many thing seems change.iT'S OK..nad i just hope it became better and better... :)

luv this photo .... taken on 08.07.2011

you make a wrong decision... YOU SPOIL ME again~~~

well.. well.. well... dun tell me that I didn't remind you tat you gone SPOIL me again wit my favorite brand CK and CK Jeans..

You SPOIL me again by bring me to hv luxury dinning which i can't finish it...

You SPOIL me again by .........

Please... do not SPOIL me again.. it will cause a bad effect.. I know you're working had on it.. but, it can be other way...

Since, you keep SPOIL me.. why don't you spoil me for last time.. I wan VACATION.. !!

Me & My life

really hard to explain how's my life is going to be.... A too rush decision definitely will affect my life and my future~ Well.. It's been a week C Kay Studio had been open.. and I can't say how was the business is going.. yea... maybe a shop located at SRI KEMBANGAN is far away from Selayang.. But, i guess it's worth.. :)

It's really big effort during the process of the opening.. we can't celebrate Baby Xindie and Bb Girl on their birthday.. ended up, they celebrate wit my parents in their home.. and a time tat we rush to our shop..

Here.. my big big tks to Mr. Jym.. Mr. Jason, Ms. Pei Ling & Endao for help me.. and not forget a BIG BIG TKS to my parents and my parents in law....

04th June 2011- Opening Eve Of C'Kay Hair Studio, Sri Kembangan.

A nervous day came .... there was a celebration on the night before the opening day... So, 5 of us heading to S.Pyramid about 8.30pm and hv a dinner at there as we decided go to @Live... but, too full. so,change to THE OPERA... after half an hour later, Endao & Rain arrived... we enjoy ourselves.. But, after 2 hour.. everyone seems getting drunk.. and myself get drunk too and vomit.. this is the first time I'm getting drunk till like tat.... and too bad.. I lost my BB at that nite...and only realize the next day morning.................
But wat to do.. :(

05th June 2011

C'KAY STUDIO Opening...........................................................
tks for my family and friends tat able to came on tat day...
I hope my business go smooth........:)

MY WEEKEND ....

WAT A day..maybe a bit relaxing for me.. i have a simple and happy outing with my mum and my sis today.. went to damansara utama and then heading to the curve to have lunch a dragon-i.. while my kids was take care by my dad and my parents in law... nothing i can buy.. just some beauty accessories. . actually i want to buy some clothing and shoes.. hahaha.. But,not buy it.. coz non one pof them suitable for me... :(
think will heading to ikea soon.. need to buy some houseware...
while, my new car still in pending because going to interchange the reg. number..
hopefully i can get the car by tomolo... :)

我只是一个木偶娃娃...

今天上午，你告诉我是真的伤了我的感觉。 。
现在我知道这是你对我的看法。但是，该怎么办？我不得不隐藏我的感觉。
我不是你想象的那种人。你给我希望，而在同一时间，你让我失望。
我哭不是因为我觉得感动
我哭，因为我觉得很沮丧。
请问你们都曾经给我一个机会吗？
答案是............. 没有!!!!
我有我自己的梦想。 。
我会责怪你们。 。
假如有一天我没有任何机会，开始我的职业生涯了。
难道这就是我们所说的“自私”？
我把你作为我的家庭。
但是，请你们对我一样吗？
总是要我按照你的方式。
即使它是错的,你还想让我遵循你说的.
我们希望有一个和平的生活。不是生活充满压力。
同时，对他
难道他真的关心我。
他是否知道我的感受？
（我知道答案）是我自己骗自己保留，因为我不能相信这是一个现实
我只想过简单而快乐的生活。
对我来说，财富是什么。
我想我们的生活无需要担心这么多。
这很简单。你能给我吗？
哪里是我的幸福?
所有的人快乐和健康是最重要的。
为什么仍愿意照顾人笑你？
如果有人问我，为什么他变成这样。
我会告诉他们，因为我们爱你，(我的意思是你爸爸)
我们愿意放弃所有的财富和使用
为你的治病。
所有的人都不会笑你。
他们一定会羡慕你，因为你有一个支持和关怀的家庭。
我真不明白你为什么都保持虐待自己？
为什么不希望重新开始？
为什么你们都不能接受我的意见?
我知道什么是一家人
但是，你们都知道什么是所谓的一家人?
我不能做什么。
因为我只是一个木偶娃娃...

三月走了。 。而四月来了..

时间过得这么快。我不知道，新的一个月就要来了。在这一个月，没有什么特别之处。只是到马六甲旅行。我学到新的东西，并学习如何赚钱。我希望我能有足够的钱让我的梦想终于成真。我要学会更加独立。我不在乎你笑我，也许你觉得我傻。至少，我知道，我不会浪费我的时间.没有人能帮助我，如果我遇到任何故障。我必须帮助自己。每个人都有自己的生活方式。有些人喜欢享受所有的夜晚。对我来说，我的孩子正在成长。在这个时候，他们需要更多的关注。没有什么比我的孩子和家庭更重要。 我必须明白，我是一个母亲和妻子。我要承担责任.我的爱奉献给他们。对我来说，值得。也许有时我在我的负面想法。我的孩子成了我的药。他们的爱让我再次微笑。我不会忘记，JYM，你努力使我们的关系变得更好。.

AN apple FOR TODAY~

我只能告诉你，我们的生活方式是不同的.
我不是住在我自己的世界。
我怎么能快乐地生活在另一个世界..
十二年已过去。我仍然留在你的世界..只是因为你.
你认为我应该打破你的世界统治，
回到我自己的生活方式,吗？
结婚，只是一个门户，但并不能保证一生幸福.
两个人在一起，最重要的是快乐。

OUR 1st TRIP.. jz two OF us...

well.. we already plan to hv trip to out station or oversea.. but dunnoe where to go.. and at the rite time.. we received a good new from AM insurance say that we get free accomodation at PHILEA SPA & RESORT... so, wat to think .. jz go there..at least can save the accomodation money. we really hv a great time at there. our next plan is hv a holiday wit my kids my in law family... no much photo taken.. but i guess this photo is too sweet for me.. i hope that we can be like this as forever... no more argue... and we are learning to understand each others...

MY WEEKEND wit my family@THE ship

JZ like wat i arrange, bring my parents to THE SHIP to have lunch as i miss the escargot sooooo MUCH.... MUM jz back from GENTING and we fetch her at her friends home while my sis and her hubby fetch my kids to THE CURVE and we meet up at THE SHIP....

BLOG less.. READ less.. and MEANless

i think it's gone be once a month for me to update my blog. I noe that it's good to have own blog... can keep something fresh in my mind? well.. i think nowdays will be more BLOG hard,rite.. And who care wat i'M GONE write at here...

CNY OF 2011

This few days, everything seems sucks... thing gets more and more complicated.. why u can't let me do some decision..? where is the happiness as you promise? do u ever think about how i feel..? do you know how much u harm my life? suddenly i feel this world is not fair.. i wan to die.. but I scare.. I scare tat non one take care of my kids.. I feel vy vy upset in this few weeks.. this is the 1st year that we argue during cny... this mean.. i really did not bother about our relationship...

我受够了。 。

我受够了。 。你让我觉得很压抑如果您继续力之我. 为什么你从来不知道我需要什么？坦率地说，我从来没有感觉到任何正如你答应我的幸福。你知道我的心是多么的痛苦?我真的很讨厌你，我不会感到欣赏，即使你为我做的笏。我真的不要求更多。我只希望你能还给我的自由。我真的累了，然后再试一次。不希望我因为你失去了一切。你必须明白，生活是一次。你永远不改变，我发现自己很难与您沟通. 可以请你再给我一点时间。让我来解释一下，其实我想要的，什么是我们之间发生的事情。但是，没有。 。你什么也没做。 。我认为这不是第一次我告诉你这一点。你是自私的。 。你是如此的残酷。我突然觉得我们之间有的是撕裂 ....我不怪你。这条道路是由我自己的选择。我只会怪我自己爱错。

tat's how I feel...

received a call from mummy.. told me tat dad is not feeling well.. At tat time, I almost want to cry out. the first thing i done is call ah ko.. and then call sis.. luckily I hv both of them.. ah ko call me and ask me to be at home bout 7.30pm. Jie also at there too.. we keep advise dad for seek a treatment from doctor.. ended up, ah ko say he will fetch dad for cheking .. after all.. we had our dinner at the restaurant near to my parents house.. I hope dad will be ok..

the thing tat i feel special is... I feel the "love" again..
and tonite.. jz 5 of us had a dinner together...

CNY...2011

THIS year juz like usual.. no cny mood during the 1st day till 6th day of cny... 6th of cny .. i start work and back to 1 day holiday again on 9th day of cny. for the whole year, this is the time tat both us of can go where ever we wish to go.. but, this is limited.. so, we decided to go SUNWAy LAGOON.. and sure we will tag along wit my litle kids on next visit..
so, each year the routine during CNY IS same.. shopping.. shopping or watch movie. nothing so special..
** i hope everything go smooth and everyone is stay healthy in this RABBIT YEAR. **

TIME.. CHAT... & MEAL

TODAY maybe a happy day for me.. and tks a lot for ur companian.. I really enjoy the day for today... AT least today u borrow ur ears for me again.. So, appreciate it.. tks..

** sharing my joy

I got a new HP.. BB bold & CK tote... TKS FOR the buyer..

THE 1st blog for 2011

SO fasttttt another new year had arrived.Not easy for me to pass out other year.. suppose the new year eve should be celebrate.. but, none. i really disappointed about this. Nothing special on tat day and my life begin bore and bore... no more celebration or outing on the special day.. frankly i say it.. I get bore wit u.. as i say.. we belong to different world.. the number of my age is getting bigger and bigger. i wonder how long i still lead a enjoy and wonderful life.. i think i deserve it.. think it back.. how many years i go through all the "sweat & bitter".. but, do u ever appreciate it..? No..i swear NO..
nothing much to talk about him anymore.. it's really getting tired to mention and mention bout it again.. i jz wonder.. how he feel when he lost me..?
this is not the LIFESTYLE tat i wish too. .
u are the one who hurt me most.. and u are the one who make my tears drop..
do u noe how HURT am,I?

a busy month -2010

Tme is nvr enough for me... i hv to keep rushing.. rushing and rushing...
well.. i really hope tat 2011 year bring a good start for me and my family.
i dun noe wat i had been achieve in year of 2010. But i do learn a lot of new things.
i learn to be more independent. while towards my kids.. all remain same... for me nothing is more important to them ~ stay healhty and happy is must.
erm... yup, i not forget i still gain other thing.. PIMPLES..now my face full of pimples vy vy hate it"
here my 2009-2010 wishlist..
1. A car .. and PERODUA KENARI will i got it... !!
2. A better car after i get my Perdoua Kenari i got it ...!!
3. An ovenite holiday wit my family. i got it... !!
4. A new pc in my room. i got it ...!!
5. A more stable career.
6. Tattoo.i got it...!
7. More time to spend wit my kids. i got half of it... !!
8. Settle up my c.card before the end of 2009 i got it..!!
9. Spend a whole day wit my HUBBY only.
10. HONEYMOON
11. A more systematic life.
12. PSP or NINTENDO DS.. i got it...!!
13. lost weight.. i got it...!!
14. 5digit amount in my personal saving
15. A more healthy life style.

Most of my wish is came true.... for 2011, i WISH..~

1. MONEY..MONEY...
2. FREE OF UNDERSTANDING FOR CREDIT CARDS...
3. HEALTHIER AND HAPPIER KIDS.
4. BLACKBERRY
5. A VACATION WIT FAMILIES.
6. SUCCESFUL CAREAR.~ CRAVING@HONEYBERRIES
7. A NEW & STYLISH MPV..
8. A HAPPIER ME..
9. HUBBY BECAME MORE RICHER AND RICHER....
10.BOTH SIDE OF MY PARENTS GETTING MORE HEALTHIER..
11. EVERYTHING GO SMOOTH EVER..

it really mean for me..

a day before my birthday, we when to SKY BAR.. yet it was still early.. but this s the 1st time we went there.. actually, it was a nice place to chill out.. we see a beautiful sky and view.. it's really vy nice... we arrived there about 5.30 and back about 6.30pm.. we jz so rush on tat time.. i still remember how tipsy am i after have a drink at there..till i have to take out my high heels to walk to parking bay,...

today...16th... which mean my chinese birthday.. we went there again..after some working purpose... it same wit my chinese birthday today... i really wish to see a sky became dark.. and u really acompany me to wait till the sky is black.. we suppose on the way back to office.. but, once i say i dun wan to go home.. and u ask me where i wan to go.. i told u i wan to go skybar to see sunset.. and u really meant it.. tks a lot and i really will not forget those time we spend wit... tks a lot.

my birthday... 14.12.2010

nothing special for my birthday .. jz have a dinner wit my hubby.. but something make it so special.. a pcs of cake from ZY tying and danie.. i went back to home at 12am.. and guess wat.. my dad in law who also almost fall sleep.. simply wait for me to celebrate my birthday wit them.. tks a lot.. and my parents who help me take care of them... tks.

THE BEST PRESENT...

this is the first time i went to SKY BAR.. i went there about 5pm .. the view at they is not so nice and the place is not huge as wat we see in the web. But the service is really good and the price is ok.. we had 2 type of different champange.. the kind tat i order make me feel tipsy even few mouth drink... the taste is almost same like beer.... first time i drink till i have to take off my high heel shoes to walk to parking. we had a chat.. and nice feeling and relax too... anyway tks a lot for u..

HURT~~

do you noe how much pain in my heart.. i put so much effort to this.. ended up.. i gain nothing. at least i try my best already.. since all of you still want to stick with the old rule and never believe others. i can't do nothing. DO U noe how much money i spend on this? you are the one who give me encouragement,. but he is the one make me dissapointted.... what i have to say.. even he also will not HELP in this situation..

I have to face it alone..

我的天..

我强迫自己感到快乐与你在一起.但我只能假装。而我真的很累假装。为什么我要自己这样遭受?是你觉得我会感到更高兴，如果继续这样下去？是我不能作出任何决定。是我没有其他选择. 你已经为我选择死亡的路?我真的很讨厌我的生活继续这样。但是，我能做些什么旁等待其他的好机会？
我知道我不能抱怨我的生活了。如果与他们相比，相信我很幸运。但有时，安逸的生活更轻松简单.
谁知道我的感受？没有任何人，包括亲近的人。为什么我不能像别的夫妻，他们可以有自己的私人时间。他们可以有自己的时间陪伴自己的朋友。为什么。 。 ？为什么。 。 ？对他来说，一个男人可以有自己的时间花费，而女性要留在家里，照顾孩子和做家务？也许我不是一个人呢？
从结婚的日子。我何曾把我作为一个母亲和妻子的工作休息吗？你有没有看到我面带微笑的一天？
我知道我不能后悔，因为选择是我做的.无论多么难走。我必须保持下去。我不能说离开，然后离开。
在这里我可以说我的主要原因还是在这个家是因为我的孩子们.
我已经答应自己。我一定要让我的孩子们快乐地生活.我们享受我们一起度过的。

我的人生.....

我还记得那个晚上.一种心脏病发作而我不能呼吸。从那天起，我知道他不紧张我了.这种事情发生前2年。我还记得。 我强迫自己感到快乐与你在一起.但我只能假装。而我真的很累假装。为什么我要自己这样遭受?是你觉得我会感到更高兴，如果继续这样下去？是我不能作出任何决定。是我没有其他选择. 你已经为我选择死亡的路?我真的很讨厌我的生活继续这样。但是，我能做些什么旁等待其他的好机会？

05.12.2010 - sunday

SINCE i have to attend trainning on the nt day, Monday at Menara Dion.So, i jz plan to stay overnite at my mum house so tomolo i non need to rush for tomolo morning coz i'm follow my brother,Ben to KL. I ever think that to I can went out at tat day alone and hang up at SKY BAR..or jz stay ovenite at HOTEL.. but, I afraid to stay alone at hotel. ended Up, all the plan hv to cancelled it. I have to wait for JIMMY to fetch me. I already think and keep thinking how and izzit my decision is ok? But, at the time i really wan to leave them .. while i was packing mt thing... Suddenly, something annoying me... JIM keep nag about.. ended up. I jz cancel all the plan and jz as usual.. take bath and sleep. AT the time I really wan to leave them.. my heart feel really >>> er>>> the kind of feel is hardly to descrip it.. still in my mind.. how it gone be go through...... really.. I dun noe wat the best solution for me.. IZZIT I HAVE TO STAY IN A LIFE WITHOUT brightness..? WHO GOING TO HELP ME AND WHO CAN I RELAY ON..? no one.. BUT, when things happen.? who really going to go through all this wit me..? JZ MYSELF wit my soul...

MY WEEKEND - MY FAMILY @ TENJI

I think it's been a long time I did not spend my weekend wit my family.. really a great day for us... to spend a family day. So, TENJI is the best choice since my kids never been there before... few photos was taken at there.. nothing more happier than a precious time wit family...

淚了 Lei Le (Tear Fell) - 東城衛 Dong Cheng Wei & 曾沛慈 Zeng Pei Ci (Pets Ceng)

when the FEEL go away...

i dun noe why the person who always gv me a new hope ended up with dissapointted.. AS what they told me why i keep to waste my time for the someone who not worth at all.. I won't listen for what they told me..as i believe that I find SOMEONE is "special make" for me... but after go through this few yrs .. finally, I understand wat they mean about this... i ask myself WHY i can't deserve better than this...
untl now, at my age almost 30, I did nothing and i archieve nothing.. beside my 4 kids.. but, i got something which money can't buy this.. i learn maNY THINGS.. i learn how to be a human. .perhaps be selfish and realistic after being fool in this few yrs.. i only now how to make people around me happy.. and i like to see them laugh and smile everyday.. FOR ME, this is more than enough.. BUT now, i noe whatever i do.. people will not appreciate.. no matter how good i'm do it. . THEY NVR APPRECIATE FOR ALL THIS.. AM i DUMB..? FOR WHAT I DID ALL THIS... ? I REALLY WONDER... FOR WHAT i make myself totally sucks in this few yrs.. do i really feel happy before.. nope.. nope.. NO FOR ME... MY LIFE IS IN A CIRCLE.. I KEEP O THROUGH THE same thing everyday...

ONE IS BETTER THAN TWO

THIS few days, i'm sleep wt my kids every nite.. and it's been routine for me for nowdays. It's make me feel better... yesterday tears drop again.. we try to discuss the MATTER.. but, he did not give me any response...even an answer.. so, i jz bother him.. and mind my own business... while he took bath.. I was reading magazinea and listen for what my kids complains about their school.. freinds.bla.. bla. .. after all, when Jimmy finish her bath, i bring the MEGAZINES inside the toilet...spend my time wit jacuzzi.. i only use for twice since i move to this room... and ended up, it's took me more than 2 hours inside the bathroom.. at tat time. the clock show tat it's already 2.30am.. pamper myself with some toiletries.. switch on my mini HP.. AND facebook-ing.. reading megazine and FALL SLEEP.. while waiting for SUN to wake up... HOPE FOR -- BETTER TOMOLO..

I'm LOVING IT.. but not bout MCdonald lar..

went to SOLARIS- TENJI yesterday with the same people again.. this is the first time i been there.. have a SUPPER buffet wit them.. and it's gv me a kind of feel so comfortable.. maybe, a cup of coffee at there.. THIS is more than enough.. even sitting there alone or with someone who can let me borrow his ears and shoulder... THIS sunday i will go there again.. and TENJI again.. with my kids and family.. and I had been wait for this since long ago...

NEW GADGET...

i guess all of you is wrong.. maybe all off you sure think that this is the gift from my husband. hahah.. no.. THIS GIFT IS NOT FROM JIMMY.. (my husband).. BUt, by someone.. TKS A MILLION TIMES.. at least my WANTED LIST IS lesser.. TKS..

( *_*) 24th Nov 2010

i dun noe what title should i put it..jz a random post. TODAY is jz like usual, which i hv to wake up for work.. prepare kids for nursery.. OH, YA!! I almost forget d.. today is my Mum birthday... i already call my mum 1 day earlier about 11.50pm and told my kids to sing a birthday song to my mum when my mum start answer the phone. My mum feel so touch till cry.... wish my MUM stay healty and happy always.. bout myself.. Nothing different.. Y'day nite.. fall sleep about 4am.. dunnoe why so hard to sleep in this few weeks.. maybe got something tat keep make me worry.. Well, i need to face it. erm.. Jim will start more and more with his work.. He finally did a Part time job tat can make him earn extra few thousand for each mths...even he only start work about 1 mths++.. but, everything seems ok and he seems change a bit.. but it's not related to me, it's more related to his ownself.. how he treat me is jz like before.. soon, our relationship will be more silence and a gap between us getting large and larger.. I'm not worry at all.. coz I noe that anything happen, I Need to face it. Even got anything happen, discuss with him is jz make me more frustate.. so,i guess no one can help me but my ownself. So many problem occurs in this few mths make me learn a lots of things. At least, I not fool LIKE before... With his current situation which more busy than before, time for us to sit and discuss about our kids is getting lesser and lesser.. Even wat he promise me, he had to postpone till I really really give up and did not put so much effort on it.. ENDED UP, I really getting tired and tired to mention about it again. MAYBE 1 day, when I'm leaving this place, he only realize about "EVERTHING THAT HE PROMISE ME SINCE 2001.." and I wait until TODAY.. I also dunnnoe still how long i have to wait.. But, I already gv up.. For me, this is not IMPORTANT anymore.. is been 9 yrs since the day he promise me.. THE PROBLEM TAT WE ARE FACING NOW IS more than jz a PROMISE.. BUT, IT's SOOOO complicated..
PEOPLE thinks we are a lovely couples.. a harmony family.. and our relationship is easy as ABC.. BUT, I swear, IS not a easy as wat others people think.. IT's a adult problem and nothing to do wit the KIDS.. as wat WE already promise before.. WE must gv them feel comfortable wit us .. WE must make them feel warm wit us..and most Imprtant.. A HAPPY FAMILY to them.. it's no different like an actor which hold a character as A LOVELY SPOUSE and PARENTS in a HAPPY FAMILY.. JZ BOTH OF US noe what is going on the back stage... I also dun now when all this can be END.. I'm tired to ACT all the day.. I not sure wat will going to happen between us.. I only noe tat.. once the sun came out, I NEED TO WEAR MY "happy" MASK again and when sky get dark, moon and star is shinning in the SILENCE nite.. I can take off the "MASK" and be my OWNSELF.. i REALLY GETTING TIRED WIT ALL THIS... I wonder if I STILL CAN REMEMBER WHO AM I. .? HOW long it's going to take for take off this MASK forever..? I wonder.. I REALLY wonder....

about my blog

start reading my blog which i start blogging from my previous blog on yr 2008. so, fast the time goes by. I realize this few things:

1. SO MANY WORDS type wrongly.. coz normally in rush, huh...

2. Almost all about my feeling and what I'm thinking about..

3. kinda a bore blog.

4. Almost same thing tat i blog it about.

PERRHAPS, it's really too much that i try to blog it out.. but, too lazy for this. try to blog as much as i can.

tat's all... I'm going to start my 2nd post.....

至少还有你 - 林忆莲 Zhishao hai you ni - Lin Yi Lian

HOW DO I LIVE.. without TRUSTWORTHY,,?

early morning..for me,everything seems fine and i did not find any trouble wit it.. but, when afternoon, problems came again.. this time i so angry. Whem myself meet some problem , i dun noe who should i talk to.. Even he,as the close person for me,but he can't share any problem wit me. Unless,He got problem, he told me and i have to find solution for him.. But not for me.. telling him my problem is make me more strees.. he is not try to discuss with me for the best solution, but nope, jz some words tat hard to listen... vy vy hard to listen. For me, the best is.. keep in my heart.. and find solution by my own..

因为你。。

** DO YOU KNOW WHY NOW DAYS I START BLOG WITH SOME CHINESE WRITTING..? I JUST HOPE SOMEDAY HE WILL READ MY BLOG AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M THINKING AND WHAT ACTUALLY IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE BETWEEN YOU.I KNOW THAT HE IS NO GOOD IN ENGLISH WHILE MYSELF CAN'T READ AND WRITE IN chinese.SO, THE BEST SOLUTION I TRY TO USE TRANSLACTION.IT'S REALLY HARD TO PRONOUNCE SOME WORDS IN DIFFERENT MEANING. BUT I TRY TO DO ..AS I HOPE YOU CAN READ ALL THE BLOG ABOUT ME AND YOU.
*** 我只希望有一天他会读我的BLOG。

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它假设是幸福。 。但为什么反而成了强调？

我所要做的就是。 。努力

我知道，我们必须努力，如果我们想实现一个梦想.但是，不是那么容易。就像当你尝试做了一个蛋糕。你需要准备足够的材料，并按照步骤，需要一些时间来装饰。那只能做成美味的蛋糕。 就像我现在想要做的。我知道有些事情是不能着急。我们需要的是时间。在这之前，我什么都做，我不会考虑那么多，只是匆匆，最后我遇到的是失败.现在的我已接近30岁。 。我真的不想再浪费时间.也许在这之前，我真的不关心我的未来是怎样。但是现在，我真的开始担心。这是发生当你没有人可以相信也不能给你任何安全感.在那个时候，你最好还是靠自己.我知道当我想重新开始并不容易.在我十几岁，我承认我真的很愚蠢。我以为，我们只需要相信彼此的关系这已经足够了。在一个非常年轻的年龄结婚,我以为他会给我幸福，并信守诺言.但是，我错了.现在，我要醒来，进入现实生活。每一件事情已经结束了.是我一个人知道什么是在我们背后发生的事情。

你不知道的事

有时候，我在想到底是我错还是他的错？一起生活了很多年，我们的生活应该是美好的。 。但是，我错了。你知道吗？当我感到不高兴，我只是装作没事。我只是不想给他任何压力。也许，我累了因为要解释为什么我觉得很沮丧？我已经告诉你多少次。但是，每次你能给我同样的回答。 “我知道，我保证我会解决它”。。 跟着你这么多年，你是否理解我吗？
我真的不要求比这更多。 。我只希望你能陪我一起吃浪漫的晚餐。我不知道你还记得你的诺言8年前的。这是一个很简单的愿望而已。你也不能为我做。我希望当我死了，你不会感到遗憾。在这个两个人的生活，我觉得你比我更幸福。你可以做你希望。你有你自己的自由。每一次你有什么问题，你没有必要去想它因为有人会帮你但是，当我面对的问题。我不敢告诉你。因为，你不喜欢包括我的问题。有时候，我觉得你真自私。当你感到快乐，你会认为我也有同样的感觉。所以，你永远不会明白我的感觉。太多的事情我想说了。但是，我真的不知道我要哪里开始。有时你对我好，不是因为你知道我有多好。但是，是因为你还需要我的帮助。算了吧。我只是表现得象个好夫妇，因为我真的不想让你们的父母伤心。只有你和我知道后台发生的事情。我已经提到你。我仍然还在和你一起是因为我的孩子。当一切完成后，我会离开，我想要去的地方属于我自己和做回我自己。生命只有一次。我不想浪费时间给一个不值得人。

THE 1ST POST AFTER FEW MTHS STOP BLOGGING.

SO SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN IN THIS FEW MONTHS AND I REAlly hate it. i jz can't stop thinking about this problem .. and i even dun like to mention about the problem here. SO fast NOVEMBER arrived already. Tat's mean end of YEAR will be came soon.. I juz hope that THE new YEAR will be better and better...

random..

i woNDER i should call it vacation.., travel or express visit to MALACCA.LN NOTHING really special for me.. jz the 1st time we hv a out-station trip wit my own family.. i mean mu hubby and my kids. . jz saty fro 2 dys 1 nite.. is really nothing special.. too rush I guess. today is weekend and i was at office to up-dating my blog.. jz somew kind of mood i liketo blog about... actually, i jz back from my parents house at kepong.. then back to office.. fetting tired wit my weekend... no money no life.. damn sien if contimue like thiis.. i relly wonder when it will end... today.. tomolo.. of forever continue like this... i really like to hv my OWN THING.. which i suppose to be .. but i only can make suggestion .. while GOD can decided about it..

1st post for JULY'2010

i realize i dun like to update my blog whenever i feel unhappy.. or i keep those annoying feel for certain time.. then, only i write nonsense at my blog... bother all of u.. this is my BLOG and i can write watever i wish to..

i dunnoe why ... i feel dun wan to gv up on him.. i noe this kind of feel is suppose not to be happen between us,.. haiz... stop it.. i should not keep bothering about this... both of us already realize tat it's won't happen ...

rite now is better.. but i jz hope myself can remain silence..




something make my eys see more brighter... we really dunnoe how is the other people think even... we noe each other for many yrs.. stay together in few yrs... this is really hard to predict wat he/she going to to.. everything is really complicated... and really troublesome.... 2 words to descripte it...

FUCKING ANNOYING... !!

11st June 2010

everything is OVER...
yesssssssss.. OVER...



*** I FINALLY HV MY 2ND TATTOO.. damn like it.. nice art work from: JERRY TATTOO...

i dun noe wat i'm thinking about..

i dun noe wat i'm thinking about rite now.. rite of this time.. i suddenly feel wan to cry.. so nothing can stop me from my tear to drop.. i cry while i was driving.. i speed as fast as i can.. since i drive other car.. it's seems make me feel more excited to speed up with 2.5cc of MPV... and of course it's really make me feel better... my love stories been disturb by someone else.. but i noe it's jz a nonsense thing.. i still remember the day both of us heading to KL.. with a lots of joke and bullshit inside the car.. 13th May 2010.. I HOPE EACH DAY will be as TAT day.. PERHAPS i'm think so much.. ended up .. the 3rd party is getting angry with me... seems like ur DULL is making some mess... can u pls let hER noe.. since she is great at all.. why she hv to bother for a small matter... i think it's YOU THINK SO MUCH... am, I? I think it's really feel COMPLICATED coz my MISUNDERSTANDING.. i hate MISUNDERSTANDING.. aarghhh.. I'm lazy to explain bout it... SILENCE is the best solution....

by the way.., I'm looking forward for my 2nd tattoo... whwat should it be..? a PIXIE..? i love PIXIE so much.. coz it's bring MIRACLE for me...

Wonder....

I really wonder why some PEOPLE who always think tat they did nothing wrong.. but only blame for other people.. why dun those fucking people use a mirror to face it back and see either who are themselves.. I believe BEHAVIOR and ATTITUDE will 100% effect how people think of u.. even ur appreance... as long as u think tat people is going to HARM u.., No matter wat they do. u always think they is going to HARM u even how sincerely they r... the FIRST thing u hv to think is URSELF... did U always create FOOL..? AT least I belive they noe wat they do.. and finally realize they BELIEVE in wrong people.. and did U noe how much U hurt them..?

W H Y. . ?

NOT IN MOOD FOR THIS FEW DAYS.. i really need someone to listen wat i'm going to say... at least i feel better.. but NONE of them.. things get harder and harder. no one understand wat is the situation that we are facing rite now.. it juz like a WAR.. and maybe someone is trying to make a trick.. finally.., i'm facing this SELFISH world.. I meet a lot of different people.. and some of them is over 10 yrs.. but who noe.. recenlty we noe tat the guy became a BETRAYER.. does he forget how all of us treat us during the days he join us.. now ..my heart really feel pain.. when i see HIS** face.. even at office or home with his illness which show he really upset and can't beleive tat's how he going to treat us... i try to make the situation better.. but,I failed at last.. while HER**.. she seems look alrite.. but, inside her heart.., i noe there're too much thing for her to worry..

i ignore so many CALL and SMS for this few day.. i nvr reply any Call, SMS or even hv a look at MISSED CAll.. I WON'T BOTHER TAT AGAIN... I Really no mood for all this.. who's noe wat will happen in the next day.. when thing gets harder,, WE JZ pray for god and ask for blessing us..

soemtimes i really wonder wat is the WORLD rule..? WHY the people who kind and helpful to other people.., always not be bless-ed... while.. for those BASTARD who keep do unkind thing.. seems like being BLESS-ed// WHY, huh? izzit this is the RULE of this game...?

I PRAY FOR GOD.. PLEASE let all this bad thing go away.. ~~

wat i'm thinking in the middle of nite..

no one noe wat will happen in the next day.,next week , next month ..or even next year. . 2010 seems a bad start for everyone.. include me too. now, my current position, as where and wat i am.. I FEEL SCARE AND KEEP WORRYING each day. I try my best to make everything change. unfortunely, it's only MYSELF gone do it and it's won't work. I wonder why everything seems change.. really. and everything became more worst than before. Why?

rite from now.., I really keep worrying. I really hope that GOD gv me a change tat can make everything go smooth. I really beg for your kindness.. for wat i need to do is not for my own sake.. and i guess u noe who i mean, rite?

April.. a long long post...

APRIL ... April is the month tat change so many thing.. many thing tat i'm not experience it before.. I learn so many thing but evertyhing seems getting worst than before .. i make myself brave than before..I swear i finally make it.. from ALPHABET. . I learn till it became WORDS.. from WORDS.. I learn it until it became SENTENCES...

Now is APRIL.. how many month will be end of 2010.. i always hope FOR new year.. So, i can start it over again.. but..In other same time... I'm afraid of other NEW YEAR came..
MY work.. my life..my responsiblity had start became busy & heavier than before.. Stress increase... laughing is getting silence and silence... while my kids and me .. seems not so close wit each other.. why..? I guess i noe the REASON... well.. i pretend the double isn't BIG enough.. I mean.. still under control..

Recently.., other SHIT happen again... BUT it happen in the rite time..
Few minutes ago.. I heard other SHIT again.. I really wonder who is right and who is wrong.. but for me.. U always be the loser.. coz the whole of u is DAMN BRAINLESS... the SORT shit tat u all create.. really STINKS .. maybe all of u getting usual.. so all of u won't SMELL it...

alrite.. i think I non need to care bout them.. It's nothing related wit me... i noe wat i hv to do is... MIND MY OWN BUSINESS...

7.35PM now... i still hv to continue wit my work..

we are in wat we afraid of..

wow.. i can't believe i did not blog for such a long time.. not because i'm lazy to blog.. but dun where and how should i start. The worst thing and damn make us worry is happing now and we are currently gv support to each other.. not only me.. it include all the people around me and those who noe wat was happening rite now.. dun worry.. July will came soon.. and i believe.. on tat month.. everything will go smooth.. and sure all of us will be there for u..

ME...

yea.. so long time did not update any post.. too busy i guess... too much thing came into my mind.. not only tat.. hv to rush for my work... it;s really make me tired.. and i really need holiday.. and the best is.. i hope they can leave me alone... i mean.. i need to be ALONE.. to many decision i hv to make.. too many solution i hv to find.. everything crush on me.. and make me damn stress.. i hv to realize which one is better to me.. I hv to choose either A or B..? i HV TO CHOOSE either left or right... i really dun noe wat the fuck i'm talking about... i really dun noe.. i really blur.. i think i hv to stop rite here... since all my kids sleep early today.. i think i should hv a nice shower... and spend my time on PSP... !!

2010 1st gathering..

actually i can't wait to blog bout this a day after gathering.. but hv to wait fews days coz still waiting for the photo.. finally i get it.!! ya. . this gathering is really great and it's been such a long time didn't attend such gathering.. everyone seems enjoy themselves.. eating , singing , chating and camera-ing.. myselves too.. we hv a ladies talk.. and of course recall back those memories when we still at SMIH... :)

it's going to OVER nad OVER again.

i should post bout how i spend my CNY holiday wit my kids & family.. JUZ AS usual.. NOTHING SPECIAL bout it.. too much thinK happen recently.. i was IN A bird CAGE and wonder how i'm going to free myself. i noe and understand that i can make a better selection.. but in the same time. i hv to thing the in both way.. i cannot leave them like tat.. even i understand i'm waste my time at here.. but i can't choose nothing.. as they're my family.. who dun wan to hv own career.. who dun wan to be rich.. yet someone told me i already hv my career, my family and everything i wan. tat's true. i hv everthing i wan.. human is GREEDy . and tat is a POINT.. i'M too greedy.. i should be happy wit i hv now.. wat i be now.. since few yrs from now.. i always told myself that i need to wake up from this dream.. i hv walk towards and promise myself to work more harder and more responsibility... i still not make any decission yet.. perhaps. i can do it in both way.. frustate.. i really dun noe. can someone show me the best solution for me.. i hv to put my kid 1st before i make any decision.. i really frustate.. i really dun wan i wan rite now.. the worst is. WHO AM I..?

IT WILL BE death POST FOR FEW WEEKS.. it's too COMPLICATED... I hv to settle up some stuff..

oNCE again.... i THINK.. i'M GOING TO SUICIDE..

i swear to much things happen this few weeks.. and luckily.. iI still can face it... otherwise, while i was driving wit 160km/h..i though everything going be settle after ONE hit.. suddenly.. many things came in to my mind.. i'm thinking how cute my kids was.. my husband and my family.. izzit worth i lost my life juz b'coz my brain can't breath to handle up those stress.. i'm vy lucky compare to others.. I really can't hv a nice sleep for few weeks and ended up.. i can't concentrate at work.. perhaps.. i was learning to grew older... the more u old.. the more matter u going to face it.. and i should learn TO HANDLE IT UP... Ya.. I agree I always talk like i can strand up again aftert i fall for several times.. frankly.. I'm the type is.. Once i fall.. I nvr try to stand in strength anymore...

29th January 2010
Grandma pass away peacefully at home.. i wonder why i did not cry when i hear that.. izzit i'm so cruel.. perhaps..i think this is the best solution since she suffer enough when she still alive.. everything is wrong ..and i believe.. IT WAS FATE... i dun noe wat is my grandma name.. when is her birthday.. how old are she.. i only noe how old was she on the day tat she pass away.. before she pass away.. i still got visit her 2 weeks before that.. and my kids call her and she able to gv feedback .. until last week.. mum told me that grandma doesn't wan to eat anymore.. and even drinks too.. no one noe the time of her actual death ... i only pay visit on the 2nd day .. and i will attend her funeral tomolo.. to pay my last respect to her.. i promise that She will always in my mind... and i really hope she in PEACE.... really in PEACE.. ** saly luv "jia po" ** this is how i call my grandma and how grandma call my name.. and sometimes call me " manga" ..

i wonder how came i get this name" manga".. yea..maybe b'coz i stole other neighbour mango from a mango tree when we back to grandma home and i though mum will feel happy when she see it.. but i'm wrong.. i kena kao kao on tat day from my mum and aunties.. i was 9 yrs old on tat time.. if i not wromg.. **

no mood to blog..

Dad call me y'day.... Grandma pass away.. May she rest in peace.:)

WEEKEND

i realize i start look old... i MUST get enough rest.. and free wit worries...

thx all for my not-so special weekend... at least i spend my great time wit my sis and kids... !!

how do i spend my weekend....? nothing special~~ when to my parents home at kepong.. and then when to kepong J.J coz near wit my parents home..as me and my sister lazy to go futher.. hv window shopping at there... me and my sister actually wan to buy cny clothes.. but yesterday... too many people at there. so..juz 4get bout it... and hv a nice treat for my kids.. ICE-CREAM... and my all time fav..cheese macaroni and latte... and I really hope to own a cafe like tat in future.. now I'm trying harder to find $$ and hope my dream will came true...

2009 ~~ 2010

well...well...well. so fast another 1 year again... i read my previous blog till current and i'm glad tat i still manage to note down some event.., the sort of feel that make me upset and the thing tat happen-ing on tat year... for 2009 ..i go through some sweet and bitter moment.. and the most unforgetable is... i got wat i wish too in my wish list.. i mean most of them i got it...

1. A car .. and PERODUA KENARI will i got it... !!
2. A better car after i get my Perdoua Kenari i got it ...!!
3. An ovenite holiday wit my family. i got it... !!
4. A new pc in my room. i got it ...!!
5. A more stable career.
6. Tattoo.
7. More time to spend wit my kids. i got half of it... !!
8. Settle up my c.card before the end of 2009 i got it..!!
9. Spend a whole day wit my HUBBY only.
10. HONEYMOON
11. A more systematic life.
12. PSP or NINTENDO DS.. i got it...!!
13. lost weight
14. 5digit amount in my personal saving
15. A more healthy life style.

maybe for some of u... some of the wish list is nonsense.. but meanful for me.. for 2010.. my widh list will be the LEFT OVER WISH tat still not get yet.. and add other new for 2010...

1. TO own a business.. i mean 2nd career.. WILL IT BE?

I hope it will came true.. as i really interest wit it... BUT SOmetimes it's hard for me to decided it... HOWEVER.. family and kids healthy came 1st..

yeah.. i hv to continues wit my work .. :)

HAPPY 2010

happy 2010... seems time goes by so fast... nothing special wit it... juz wit other prvious year again... I hope in this year 2010... I still can build my own career... more than 1.. can ?

a pcs photo for my kids - holiday camp

family day at KLCC..~~ AQUARIA

here r there... went to AQUARIA KLCC wit them on last friday... too many people on tat day.... but still ok lar.. at least still can see fish.. but some totally brainless... u noe lar.... got people stand at tat and try to take photo at there more than 5 minutes... and make all the people people struck at there juz because wait fot tat sohai couple to take phot and they manage to ask their friend to block people from walking at there so they can take photo.. huh.. u think u're superstar,meh..? till all the people behind they keep nagging..i wonder they got ears or not.. they even act nothing... my kids seems enjoy themselves.. and back to home around 10 pm after dinner.. : ) *** try to arrange other family -outing wit my kids as the school will opening soon.. !!

happy birthday to ME..

YUP.. iT WAS MY birthdaY TODAY,... 14th December..... 1st of all.. i really appreicate the sms and Fb comments from my friends... this year I really received big surprise from my sis and friends.. one weeks ago i already received a bouquet of flower from my friends and it'really surprise me... and I also receive gift from Zy-ting ( DANny'gf ) , my sis and my sis in law..

a very nice bag wit a nice paper bag.. from my sis in law, Errica
a bouquet of flower from my sis and bro in law..

a bouquet from my friend which send to me one week earlier..

thx all for now and i will continues my post later.. thx everyone and i wish tat all my family..stay healthy and happy ... thx

RaNdOM...

time pass so fast.. it's was DECEMBER... and soon wil be JAN'2010. i BEieve many of them will getting married on 20.10.2010... nice number, rite? well fo me.. this month is really meant to me... It was my BIRTHDAY MONTH... but i guess nothing special for this...

attend my friend wedding dinner yesterday AT noble banquet... meet many classmate .. but did not take any photo... it really an enjoyable nite... and of course i really hope for our classmate gathering soon... !! will it be..?

i realize wat i AFRAID of...

afraid and HATE lonely.. which make me and my mind keep thinking all the silly thing.. this few nites.. i feel lonely and hard to fall sleep... thinking to much i GUESS... after listen the advice from Master.. I keep thinking... if wat he say is ture.. sure i feel happy but at the end. I will lonely... but i 'M not bother it all... wat I noe.. i must continue my life.. searching for the thing i wish for.. too many things happen to me recently which make me blur and i juz really dun noe wat are going on..? this few nite make thing so much things tat keep annoying me... i need make a big decision.. which took me few years... no one care wat i feel .. even the other part of me.. i feel frustate now.. I dun noe wat i should post it about but i dun wan to keep it in my mind. i need someone who can gv me a lot of time to hear wat inside my mind tat make my feeling keep moody all the time... unfortunely.. no one can i express my feeling to.... i juz noe that i need a rest.. really..I NEED A REST and A PEACE on my Mind.. beside close my eyes and wait for other days came...

Mummy Birthday at REDBOX.. the CurVe

celebrate mummy birthday last wednesday.. .. went there after work... and hv buiffet dinner at there and the food at there.. too BAD..!! not so much photo taken on tat day.. some of the photo is wit my sis.... everyone look like enjoy themselves.., even my kids too.. but... seems not for me.. I'm not feeling well on tat day... AND NOTHING TO much to blog bout it.. coz i'm not feeling well rite now.. hv to end it rite now and hv a good rest..

MY best friend WEDDING

YUP.. my best friend wedding is same day wit my sis too.. luckly her wedding dinner is a day earlier so tat i can attend for her wedding dinner.. she looks very pretty .. have a nice chat wit my friends.. and it's really a fun time... not many photo taken.. coz myself did not like take any photo.. coz i look big ..compare wit my other friends.. and tat's the reason...

My frenz.. WISH U all the best and HAPPINESS 4ever...

** WAT A short post, rite.. .. Hv to continue wit my work.. again.. :(.. GAMABATEH !!

KIT CHYI & MAGGIE WEDDING ...

TIME passed so fast.. juz like a wind blow... my sis married.. no one like her can accompany me when i need her.. but i guess we still can hv a great time each weekend..aren't we? same goes to Brother Ben too....who busy for his current job..,GAMBATEH !!!.. ok. back to the story.. now only i realize tat i did not take any photo wit my sis and BRO in law.. even for the diner also..

juz as usual.. nothing much to blog bout this.. juz with the few photo of my sis wedding..

WISH U ... HAPPINESS 4ever..

nothing else but WORK......

BESide work... nothing will make the time pass... it's really not the way I wan... no break for during lunch... no break for tea time... i mean.. while having lunch.. i hv to work too...tired... phone ring-ed unstopped..... tension and depress..... only the emotion during work... everything totally sucks and not as smooth as wat we think.. being blame for thing NOT-RELATED to us... huh.. sometimes tear even drop ... ... i really need a rest.. i need my private time.. i need to sit alone to hv something nice to drink while i enjoying my time... i need to spend a litle time for shopping alone.. even window shopping is really make me enjoyable.. i really need to watch movie at cinema alone.. coz..I really forget.. how is the cinema look like.. the ;ast time i visit.. It was 7yrs ago... I need to take a fresh air.. I need to hang out wit my friend.. where is my TIME.. I wish there will be 30 hour for each day...

HAPPY HOLIDAY... @ Genting Highland...

some photo of us.. during a holdiay at GENTING HIGHLAND.. hope got chance to go there any stay for other 2nite... : ) it's really enjoyable holiday....

can't wait

still got 3 hours to go..... some of them .. maybe think that i'm a bit crazy.. when he told me that we are going to stay overnite at GENTING.. the kind of feling..id DUN NOE how to descripte.. it's been such a long time i really wish to stay overite wit my kids.. as the told me b4.. even go to GENTING only.. but the time we spend together wit my family.. is countless.. and mykids.. feel happy when we told them that we are going to bring them to GENTING and stay overnite.. although.. one nite.. at least .. both of us as parents finally make their wish came true.. maybe it was a litle small thing for some of u.. but both of us busy wit our work.. and hard for us to take a break and spend it wit our kids.. BEING as parents.. nothing much happier when u see ur own kids..HEALTHY and HAPPY...

CONCERT sri MELODI

LAST SUNDAY.. went to Selayang for my 2 litle kids school concert... the kind of feeling.. er.. i mean.. vy pround to see ur kids dance at the stage.. and dun u noe .. how cute r them... a day before the concert .. they're so nervous till hard to sleep at the nite... biasalar.. juz like us when in their age... of course.. MUMMY PROUND OF U....

TIRED

I wake up early in the morning and wish i will hv a nice day at work.. but each time i'm feel dissapointed.. wake up early in the morning.. pick up clothes from my wardrobe... wit my moods on the day... make up .. i remind myself.. i work wit other people... not a family business...tat's why i can't bother too much wat they say.. it's really a big pleasure working here.. i noe tat i'm not interesting to work at here... but, wat to do...? i dun hv other choice,, i do like working here.. but sometimes... the situation is totally SUCKS........ each time gets harder .. not BETTER.. can some
there're no any loan submission approve.. the 2nd boss keep nagging and nagging like a mad people.. he keep blame us coz submit to the wrong bank and officer.... haiz.. wat to do.. IF the officer in charge is on leave...... wat to do..? nothing to blame us.. .. BUT HE KEEP BLAME US..lol!!

rainie day.....

it's rainning.. and today i'm working alone again... .. i can't wait for next sat.. I'm going to stay there overnite wit my kids... yeah !!!the last time that i went to GENTING HIGHLAND..is almost 1 yrs ago...... i'm sitting alone at office... like a fool... thinking where to go tonite.. as it was FAMILY nite today.. still wondering where to go.. and at the end watch movie together at room.. and play games wit them... ** tomolo is my 2 litle kids school concert at selayang mall.. will upload many photo ... !!!

when there're GOOD NEWS.. suddenly it's came wit BAD NEWS...

yeah.. work really makes me totally SUCKsssss... I'm will be getting older and older.. too much thing make me feel frustate.. make me doesn't hv good rest.. and i had to cancelled all the activity that i been planned during my kids holiday.. eveything i hv to figure it out again.. i hv to make a schedule again.. much more to figure it out ler.. feel dizzy when i think bout it.... GOOD news..? a new born baby in WONG's family..... A baby Boy and the bad news is.... it's regarding my dad in law.. for those who noe bout him.. i non need to mention here... while for those who dun noe wat's going on wit him.. I think.. I non need mention at my blog.. it't not a good new to share ......
eveyhthing change.. juz as wat i mention always.. I used to hv my personal office room b4.. now.., i had to move and sit wit other sfaff since there're no enough staff.. i dun hv any position in my work.. WAT also I hv to be involve and the truth.. I had to wash toilet and clean up the office too... wat I'm do.. u better GUESS it urself.. I'm not mind for doing those thing.. I'm sincere to do it... almost every minutes i can see my boss-- both of my lady boss.. even at office.. at home.. so it make it more stress... my boss recenltly gv a memo to us.. " NO FACEBOOK AND PC GAMES DURING WORKING TIME"... and can i gv a memo to my both of boss to... " NO DISCUSSING FOR WORK MATTER DURING ' HOME' TIME... noe why..? this not because they treat me badly.. actually there're THE BEST BOSSes and PARENTS IN LAW .. in world..
but... SOMETIMES... thing will go smooth juz like wat u think.. we dun noe.. either the car buyer are involve and bad c-cris or c-tos credit record.. even they won;t admit they hv a bad credit record... and they request to collect the car within a weeks after deposit paid... and the result..." PENDING APPROVAL" is the answer to my boss if they asking regarding about the loan approval.. while in the other side.. buyer will non stop call us to ask for their loan situation... i blog to much today.. and i hv to continue my work... so many thing i wan to bla..bla.. bla.. today.. but I'm forced to end it rite now.. I will be update soon..

UPDATE..

IT was A REAL looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong looooooooooooong time i did not update my blog.. I'm busy wit my work currently..... myabe tat was a good start for me.. and in other time.. i did not hv time wit my family.. my life juz as usual... work , eat, sleep and........? PSP... oh.., ya. I hv new member in my family.. and my sis will get marry soon.. i'm still thinking the best way to slimmming.. oh... GOSH.. I'm dun noe wat I'm blogging about...

everything change and things go more and more complicated...

as wat i been post before.. it's really really complicated.. I really wonder wat is going on rite now.. everything seems change and .. and i think i non need to mention it too much ... and i'm not bother it at all.. those people around them may think I'm ..... GREEDY.. and i non need gv any explanation to them .. wat i noe is.. since everything start change.. I think this is the time i should work in more systematic .. i hv to became more resposibility to handle the job in my hand ... and let them can hv more time to free their own mind... no matter how is it.. wat i promise .. i try to do and even work harder and harder.. I promise myself.. watever it be I'm still the same.. I won't 4get bout " TRUSTWORTHY "... is time for me to walk further to the bright side and nvr turn back to the black space where i always lost.. I found myself finally...

I wan u to noe....

THIS IS THE 2nd TIME .. mY TEAR DROP B'coz OF U..!!!!!

somemore wan ask me.. " wat HaPPEN To U? rU GETTing FLU..? " lebih lar..

Yup.. if u read my BLOG.. i really mean it.. IS u ..lol!!